wash my hands, took off my contact lenses, wash my face, dried 'em up. turn on the tv, searching for the righh tune, grab my sketch pad ... starting to write ... 'bout anything.

i just watched one of Meryl Streep and Renne Zelweger's movie, called One True Thing. it taught me a lesson, that we shouldn't fill our life by dreaming and hoping for what is not there. but loving what we have, instead. hmm ... how those lines really took my full attention. realizing the contents of that email that i sent to jedi, and this new truth that i found, i find myself in contradiction.

so we do live in a contradicted dimension. and we're all lost in it. there's so many "VS"s om everything. what's the best thing ... how's the best thing for us to look it, then?

lot's of people, giving out comments and statements like: "so, here's how she sees it ..." but c'mon .. take a further, by digesting this deeper. do we really know the best thing to see things ... our way? or is it only leave us with other contradiction in the process?

i wont be a hypocrate ... i face this myself, and to be honest ... that's just one of thousands of elements that shapes, molds, and sculps life the way it is. contradictions, pros and cons, versuses, good and bad, right or wrong, even the decision to choose right over left ... are the ones that makes your life worth living. for the results ... the ending, the reward ... is extra ordinary. even beyond what life can explain.

dont quit ... keep on going! you're not alone...